I come into work today, late due to retarded people who cannot drive. Almost 1 hour later than usual, which is fine because I have to stay until 5:30pm today to meet with some people I work with who are hard to nail down. My week started the same as it has in the past few months. Painfully.

Anyways, it has been a better day in terms of work but a crappy day in terms of moral. I realize that life is not always positive. I did however get a wicked t-shirt from Lady K. I will now wear my new NYPD t-shirt whenever I want to slap people with my ‘don’t give a fuck what you think’ attitude.

We went for lunch and had a good chat. I am trying my best to keep the negative feelings I have been having as of late to myself but every so often they seep out and show their face. I spoke about how rewarding physical work is, and Lady K responded with how rewarding her work is, which I bet when it comes to writing reports she would like to resend that comment, hee hee. Especially Mr. A’s facility work.

But, I agree with her in that build science is more to my liking than anything else. I wish I knew it existed when I was going to choose a career because I would have taken that course over drafting in a heartbeat. But I do have a path that I have chosen and I submit that it will probably not always be like this, this negative work. Still I fear that it may last. No one should have to hide beyond the invisible.

But there may be a solution to my woes. My helm should be done this week so I can finally finish what I need to get finished so I can be legal that way (ensure the gorget covers all the spots my helm does not). Then to get my card so I can be legal the other way. Of which, in my backwards way, leads me to my solution. I am missing nature so I need to get outside. I am going to cut out much of my computer work when I get home. Maybe 1 hour a night before bed. The rest of the time is working on armor and getting my body in shape. Looking at the photos from the race this weekend I really need to work on my form. Posture, gut, this damn headache that is still going 4 days later… I bet, a little life outside the box will help that out. Lady K also said that it would be $150 to rent a Kayak for the day and go out on a lake. You know, I have not been adventurous like that my whole life. I have not seen what people like her deem common place. I have missed soo much playing games. I love games still but they are failing me again and again. When will I learn there is more to life than pwning noobs. /sigh I am so good at it though. If only they made it so I can get exercise while I pwn noobs I would be in the stream.

FRELL! As I write this Terry puts a box of chicken on the way on the counter….man I fail.

I feel like the chains are around me so I tell myself as I stare at the face of the mother “Close your eyes to just feel and realize it is real, and not a dream. I’m in you and you’re in me. It is time to break the chains of life if you follow, you will see what’s beyond reality."

And then I sing at the top of my lungs “And I wonder, when I sing along with you, if everything could ever feel this real forever. If anything could ever be this good again. The only thing I will ever ask of you, you’ve got to promise not to stop when I say when.”

Cause sometimes you need to just shout out loud when you can.

This Link is an important manifesto. I believe it helps state my opinion on the up and coming laws on copy write infringement.


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