Neat, Ima Firr-`fiter

You know, this week has been a good week. Up until Wednesday. Then I had to fight some fires.

Suffice to say it was fun and life goes on. I am much happier this week because my BITTY IS COMING!!!!

I swear, when she gets within range I'm gonna just melt. Soo much stress will leave me and life will be good.

Thursday can not come fast enough; Bitty should have booked for Wednesday night LOL.

We are going to Jasper. Camping.

First thing I am going to relax and try to commune with nature.

Ever been tired but can't stop?

I am trying so damn hard to stop bitching about the current situation in life but it’s not working. Every time there is some sort of sanity someone has to come in and blow it out of the damn water, with a nuke!

I fucking hate my job, situation blah, blah, as you all know, and I keep bitching about it blog after blog after blog. It’s not bad in that I like what I do at work, I just hate the people I work with. Not everyone mind you just a select few who exude retardedness.

I came up with a suggestion today of having a safety backpack. Included in this pack would be a hard hat, first aid kit, safety goggles, and ear protection. I know that I had one and always carried it with me. Worked great. Now I don't mind if people don't take my suggestions, but don’t bitch because we don’t have it after you scoff and call me a dumbass. And don’t tell me that spending a couple of bucks on safety gear is a waste of money.

I think with 10 years of experience on site would give me a little knowledge on safety. Apparently, after the way I was treated, i don't know fuck all. Fine, but that just means I don't help at all either.

Why do I like to help? Manners...maybe good karma...maybe to fill a void.

Problem: AHHH SOO SICK OF NEGATIVITY!!!

Solution: Fuck off.

I’ll go to Winnipeg and build a relationship there, then if it's a good place I'll transfer. There is nothing Winnipeg has that Calgary does not have other than my Bitty. And I think I need my Bitty to be able to live my life.

Bottom line is I need companionship. I think if I say here I will lose my mind.

Again.. Blah blah blah, all talk and no action. With major projects coming in that I want to keep my role on... can I move away? Doubt it.

Money is better in Calgary. Life is cheaper (except gas) in Winnipeg.

People may think I am a whiner who cannot handle the job, and they are right. Never before have I worked with so many petty, retarded, insolent, babies. No wait... my WoW guild was just like this. And I quit that fucking game.

How do you spell relief "C-A-N-C-E-L A-C-C-O-U-N-T"

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Bullshit!

Hee hee thanks to my bitty I now have allies in my war on conformism. My new allies are magicians. Yes you heard me, magicians and showmen. The show is called Bullshit. It is hosted by Pen and Teller. Notorious, right wing, self-thinking individuals. Seriously, I am not the only one with strong feelings over issues. Feelings that is so strong that people call me a retard or get sick of my ranting. But, honestly, why rant. Watch this and tell me that I am being an asshole for my strong opinions on these topics. If THIS does not make your head hurt then I don’t know what to say.

I mean omg srsly. Watch a few episodes. Watch the one on the bible. It's damn good.

So I got to get in my car to go to dragonslayer this weekend.. And my doors would not unlock... so I stood for like 10 mins outside my car in the middle of the street trying to figure out a way to take my remote apart to change the battery. So then I just open the door with my key and get in. I put the key in and turn... nothing.... not even a light. The car is dead. I open the hood to check the battery wires and everything is fine. So there I was, a hot Saturday morning, sitting on my stoop calling a tow truck to come pick up my car.

Its at the dealer today, hopefully getting fixed. I am having them do the oil change and look at my stereo because it is broken too. Seriously.

I love my car in that it makes me feel safe, I can drive it, and it's got power without guzzling gas. But I am not attached to it. If it's a lemon they will be taking it back. Willingly or me driving the thing up their ass.

My uncle says it’s just the battery but I checked it not one day before and the computer said it had 13.78 volts of power. More than enough. So that’s weird.

I think my word of the week is, Bullshit!

Hee hee
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Work was good

Finally a half decent day yesterday.

Work was boring, until I got the new pc to work on then I had something to do. Spent most of the day installing programs and updating programs and... Programs... Long story short the PC works like crap (it’s a dell) and we need to wipe it again to see if we can get it to work with some sort of efficiency.

Anyway, we had an emergency CAD meeting because of the heated discussion on the boards between myself and Mr. Saj. He did not show up for this one. So I got to voice my opinions quite thoroughly and everyone agreed that we can do more if we do it my way. Sorry, I must include Mr. K in this as he is handling backing me up and take care of the civil end of things.

We covered a lot of things in the CAD meeting. I think my opinions/suggestions where constructive and well placed. I did not have that one guy there to cause any trouble in the office so that was nice. I have a meeting set up with the prez to discuss the issue I am having and help me find a solution to resolve this conflict. We cannot work if there is these petty carry on going down every time I open my mouth.
I don’t see why people are so sensitive. Saying things without sugar coating them should be a normal manner of communication. But apparently you need to kiss the ass of most of the people to get anything done. People should spend some time in the military. They will learn how to show respect and get things done.
In school, my project teams where the same way. One could argue that the issue is with me. And that is probably true because I don’t kiss their ass. I am a pusher. If the deadline is in 3 days I want it in 1.5 days. Why is it good to think that way? Because there are no medals for second place in my line of work and life. Do it all or don’t do it at all. No half ass and nothing, nothing is ever "good enough". Pet peeve "Good Enough" /shudder.
Boredom as overtaken me again today. There is just no work. I am going on site today to do a site inspection, that will be nice. Need to go home though and get my pants and boots as shorts where the only thing clean to wear this morning.

I will stop at Wendy's on my way back to work for a salad for lunch. They have good salads.
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In pitch dark I go walking in your landscape
Broken branches trip me as I speak
Just 'cause you feel it doesn't mean it's there
Just 'cause you feel it doesn't mean it's there
(Walking on broken glass, treading near a snake, these are the things that are not there but they could be)

There's always a siren
Singing you to shipwreck
Don't reach out, don't reach out
Don't reach out, don't reach out
(The woman beacons you to come, to fulfill your desires, but the wolf is in sheeps clothing, and her teeth just feasted on your grandmother)

Steer away from these rocks
We'd be a walking disaster
Don't reach out, don't reach out
Don't reach out, don't reach out
(Dont follow the beast into oblivion, the hearts of many depend on your feet staying safe of the path next to the stream of life.)

Just cause you feel it doesn't mean it's there
There's someone on your shoulder
There's someone on your shoulder
(You know that something is behind you, don’t be tempted to look or you may miss that which is right in front of you)

Just cause you feel it doesn't mean it's there
There's someone on your shoulder
There's someone on your shoulder
(There is always something besting you, to doubt that is to instill arrogance and deceit for yourself and all that you cherish)

There there!
(It’s been a pleasure)

Why so green and lonely?
And lonely
And lonely
Heaven sent you to me
(Mother gives many gifts, all of which are denied by the blind eyes of mankind. The skies can open up and shed a million tears upon you, and you hate it for its compassion.)

To me
To me
(We are here, we are lost and we are found, but are we ever truly alive?)

We are accidents
Waiting, waiting to happen
We are accidents
Waiting, waiting to happen
(Man destroys that which is most cherished, it’s just a matter of time before the balance will be restored)

Thinking a lot about moving away. I hate my job, I am sick of this city, I miss my bitty, and I am questioning whether or not it’s worth it to stay. So many people here are driving me nuts. I think the only way out is to rest with cuddles. I am so tired of fighting. I have never had to deal with office crap before. I largely try to ignore it so it does not affect my work and take it out on these boards but it’s beginning to make me get snippy with my non work relationships. I draw the line there, work stays at work and home stays at home. What should I do?

I ordered a new PC, fully loaded, to run the latest and greatest CAD software. It just got in the office today and I need to set it up. Well C is going behind my back to force Mr. P. to give it to her before I even set it up. It’s my job as CAD Lead to ensure these computers are all set up. Now I don’t care if she has it after its set up but it’s the method in which she is doing it, putting Mr. P. in a bad position. I am going to refuse to give it to her. At this point she is not one who needs it. I am not either. I think the one guy who needs it hates my guts. But business before personal feelings, he would use it more than I would at this time. I can wait a few weeks for the new ones to come in. I will get it and test it and load it with software then pass it off.

The nerve of some people. Mr. Saj is causing me grief as well and he is supposed to be my assistant. The CAD Lead boards are lit up like a holiday tree with the amount of abuse he is showing me. I take it and try to turn it into something constructive. Sort of like sticking it to him with a business attitude. I will have to deal with that one when he gets back.

Sigh…

I just want to hear again. I just want to see again.
Anyone seen my Pigeon Camera?

Pigeons, being easy to train and eager to return to their nests after long journey's, were first used as spies during World War II. Yep, forget about James Bond and shoe phones, that pesky visitor to your balcony each morning may just be what a real "company man" looks like. With small camera's strapped to their chests, Pigeons were perfect for reconnaissance work... well, except for their unreliable and unpredictable work ethic, total dumb luck photography style and constant AWOL'ing to go statue sitting in Paris and Bucharest.

I am Sailing!

Ok, I was not sailing but it was hella fun to go kayaking yesterday. However I could not stop laughing once I thought of the 'What about Bob' movie where Bob (Bill Murray) was yelling... well you can watch the clip. It’s damn funny.

In any case, my first time kayaking went well. My seat was not adjusted so I can to sit up on my own all day without a back... hey I didn't know you can adjust that. I also did not know there where foot pads inside the boat. Well once I found the paddles life was great. The boat I had was a boat, not nearly as streamlined as everyone else’s. It was like pushing an egg through pudding. hee hee. But I loved it because it pushed my upper body to use more power and less lazy.

I tried to follow Lady K but she was ZOOM! out of there. I lost her when I ran aground on a sand bar and had to poke and prod my way around to find a way though. I instead went the long long way around. She was long gone by then. But it gave me a chance to make mistakes on my own and learn from them.

I got all the way around and found an inlet for a stream to go up. So up I did. I saw a beaver and birds and fishes and other such things. Fighting the current in that boat was hard though, many times I found myself being pushed around as if the water did not want me there. Finally I got to a green foot bridge and tried to get past this one fast moving part. Access denied. I was paddling like mad until I ran out of stamina. About 5 minutes (put your sex joke in here now if you want but let me say that even if its 5 minutes, it would be the best damn 5 minutes in your life man!) of pushing.

I made three tries and then decided that undine did not want me there. I respected her wishes and turned around.... sort of, sort of went backwards for 50 feet. It was fun, leave me alone! I took the long way back and met some ducklings who decided to chase me and not their mother, so I turned around and lead them back to their mother. Little buggers. I also saw a bald eagle attacking a sea bird. 2 crows came in to rescue the bird though and the eagle fled. It was interesting to see.

I then booted around some more, went back to the docks for a drink and a washroom break, got back in my boat for another tour.

All and all, something I have never done before and I did not know I could. I learned something else, my car is huge. I put the whole boat inside my car on the way home. That made me happy. Saved my roof from damage!

Well back to another day another dollar. TTYL

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